[mom_of2]

I haven't posted on here in a couple of weeks - just dealing with alot of my emotions from the last round of IVF and mc...but I don't know how else to express myself. My sister in law who I love dearly just called to tell me she is pg. I tried to be happy and excited for her but I am sitting here bawling my eyes out. While I know she is a great mother to my two nephews there are somethings in her life that are not positive and my dh and I feel that the relationship she is in (her ex-husbands best friend) is not the greatest (he just left rehab and has not been doing well). I know I sound like a horrible person but I just felt all the hurt I have tried work though come flooding back. Why is this so hard??!!!!

[crankyfidget]

Lorie,
I'm so sorry that you're dealing with this. And that you have to face pregnancy news on top of it all. (((HUGS)))

[KMH]

You do NOT sound like a horrible person! What you are feeling is totally normal and healthy and just goes along with the unfairness of infertility. My sister (who is a wonderful Mom in a wonderful marriage) announced 2 pregnancies while we were TTC. I bawled for days each time, not because I wasn't happy for her, but because it was so hard to watch them fill their house with children while we sat here in our silent, lonely house waiting for a BFP. I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with this on top of everything else...it stinks and it is completely not fair.

[pianogirl]

Lorie, I'm so sorry you are going through this. I mc when both me and my friend were pregnant at the same time and she is due in a couple weeks and it's a constant reminder of what should've been. We all understand what you are feeling and I hope you start to feel a tiny bit better as time goes by.

[AllisonC]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. You're feelings are completely normal. I also went through a similar situation with my best friend and several cousins getting pg and delivering babies in the past 3 years we've been ttc. It's a very difficult time in your life and having thoughs feelings are completely normal. Infertility is so unfair.

[Yankee Girl]

Lorie,
Hang in there! I understand how much the feeling of "unfair" hurts! Been through it too, and leaves me wanting to flip out. Stay positive and think happy thoughts! I am a firm believer in staying strong for what you want!

[mom_of2]

Thank you ladies...I think I just lost it...I was getting myself on track and ready to start another round of IVF when I got the news. It just hurt when she told me since she is early on she wanted to let me know in case something happens since I already knew what that was like - no kidding her exact words and they hurt like hell. You are all strong and wonderful women and I wish you all the best Thank you again.

[~Lynda~]

hugs to you, i'm new to this subforum, but have had 4 miscarriages. You are not a horrible person. We all feel the same way you do. It just simply hurts!!! HUGS