[jenmommy]

Ok, so I didn't lose much weight, but I didn't gain either which means my body is tolerating a huge amount of food...

basically at my current weight of 192 I am eating 45 WW pts a day and not gaining.

even though I am supposed to lower my pts to 25-29 for my weight range...that is too drastic for me...I am going to try 35 pts.

(Oh a friend gave me the WW information)

35 pts along with following the golden rules

1. eat when hungry
2. eat what you want and not what you think you should
3. eat consciously
4. when you think you are full stop

maybe I can try working out to earn activity points so I can eat more--lol--since I like to eat.

[jenmommy]

May 3rd, Saturday Goal < or = 35 pts.

Banana - 2 pts
2 cups coffee -2 pts
4 slices deli shaved turkey-1 pt
1 english muffin-2 pts
1 slice reduced fat "swiss" cheese-1 pt
1 can low sodium v8=0 pts
a few slices lettuce=0 pts


good I'm at 8 pts.

I ate alot yesterday though, so I may not be as hungry today.

snacks : lettuce=0 pts, coconut=0 pts (didn't eat enough for 1 pt--it was bad )


1/4 glass 2% milk .25 pts, 1 cup mixed frozen berries=1 pt.

9.25 pts...I'm hungry...oh just remembered I bought light popcorn...that should work--I got to go shopping...


banana=2 pts

I had popcorn before I went shopping for 3 hours... it was light=3pts

I picked up some swedish fish while I was out--one of my favorite candies--I ate 7 of them =3 pts

I had a 3 oz hamburger with onion, lettuce and tomato w/out condiments=6 pts

bun=3 pts

lettuce, tomato with salt and pepper=0 pts

it's my neighbor's son's birthday so I am going to have cake tonight...

so I am at 25.25...the cake will be 6 pts...

that will put me at 31.25 pts...and I probably will have a beer tonight that will be a budlight and it will be 2 pts.

well, I know I ate less calories, because I was filling up on lettuce and tomato and light popcorn...I still ate the same amount as normal, just lower calories...

activity=light cleaning 1 hour
shopping/walking-(slow, leisurely) probably 2 hours
shopping fast/speed walking 45 min.

[jenmommy]

Sunday, May 3rd

so far so good! I think I like this system-gives me a goal to work for--that doesn't take tons of number crunching...should see my excel worksheet from my last "diet"

Today I had

1 cup coffee-1 pt
Vanilla shredded wheat cereal-2 pts
1/2 glass 2% milk-1.5 pts
1 large can low sodium v8= 0 pts
2 pcs wheat bread=4 pts
1 slice "swiss" cheese-2 pts
1/4 tsp horseradish sauce-0 pts (not even 10 cs)
1 cup frozen mixed berries-1 pt (really great frozen treat!--better than any ice pops--really cooled me off when I came in from outside!)

so 11.5 pts so far and it's 4:30 pm...

I may just be able to swing 25 pts...

I worked transplanting my plants to bigger containers, and also worked for about 30 minutes digging in the garden, so I know I got some exercise...I'm kind of tired now..and we have more gardening to do when Tay gets home..

progress on my stomach ailment--it only gets fired up when I am doing some manual labor...but I have been feeling another sensation in addition to the first--feels like stomach is growling low in my pelvis--has to be intestinal spasms...it was doing it all day yesterday, and today, but it just started...maybe all the fiber.

Wheew! I've been working in the yard all day and all night--I'm exhausted, and I ate alot of dinner...

dinner

steamed asparagus=0 pts
1/2 cup brown rice=2 pts
1/2 porkchop=1.5 pts
3 oz breakfast steak=3.5 pts

desert
1/2 cup peaches in light syrup=2 pts
3 tbsp whipped cream=3 pts

snack: 1 cup popcorn=1 pt
1 beer-budlight=2 pts
lettuce-0 pts
4 ears baby corn-0 pts
Alright!!!!!

Total 26.5 pts!

[soImarriedAnerd]

Geez jumpy girl! LOL Can you put your name in your journal title still so i know whos who easier (i am blonde you know LOL)
Ok so your now doing the WW thing, cool. Glad to hear you belly is doing better, and YEAH you will have some odd stomach stuff going on when you start eating healthy...i took me a month before my stomach realized that fiber was here to stay LOL.

[jenmommy]

sorry about that, just that thread was soooooooooooooo long, and I just wanted a fresh thread...

yes, my body is like..whoa...

yes, technically I am doing the WW...but I didn't join... a friend hooked me up with the info..and I'm a fast learner...

ok today:

2 cups coffee= 2pts
1/2 cup shredded wheat cereal=1 pt
1/2 cup milk=1.5 pts


snack: frozen mixed berries=.5 pt
2 tbsp whipped cream=2 pts

I took a nap and slept through lunch

snack: 1 low sodium v8=0 pts
snack: non pareils= about 10 of them =1 pt
crows-licorice candy 3 of them=1 pt
junior mints-snack box=1 pt

dinner:1 1/2 cups rice=6 pts
veggies=0 pts
sweet and sour sauce?=1 pt
shrimp, beef, and pork=2 pts
1 8 oz glass 2% milk=3 pts

so I got 22 pts..

I am still kind of hungry...I need to find something to munch on not laden with pts...and most likely I will have a beer too...

prob a budlight and some light popcorn...

popcorn, light =5.3 pts (i ate the whole bag)
beer, budlight 2 pts

total =27.3 pts not bad!

[jenmommy]

May 6th...

look out a whine post,

so yesterday, I actually took it easy...I got up at 6:40 am...and worked in the garden just a little, and checked on my seedlings, and fixed the irrigation system...then I cleaned just a little...

that's when the day went sour...I accidentally put my computer chair on my pinky toe and rolled over it...sliced the hell out of it and squished it...it was throbbing and funny thing my pinky finger on the same side went numb...all day..

I preceded to shave my legs and bikini area--in prep to get a mystic tan--razor burned the hell out of them--###### Quatro--

after that I put straight witch hazel..on my sore spots..which is supposed to keep them from getting infected...followed with some bikini zone--now I was sore, red, and VERY irritable...

after all that trouble..I said screw the mystic tan for today..

at 12 pm..I gave up..was exhausted hit the bed...and slept til 3 pm...that kind of sleeping isn't normal for me..but it felt good.

woke up in better spirits, still sore, and a little miffed I slept so long..

cleaned lightly...

went to pick up my son from after school program...and it hit the fan..

the boy gets 9 behavioral marks for different sections--and on 6/9 he got bad marks for TALKING...

this wouldn't be so bad, except he has been getting bad marks for talking more and more....I used to tell him to be quiet in class..now I angrily tell him "JUST SHUT UP" he is allowed three strikes on the behavior thing..and he got 6!!!

needless to say, he was grounded, had to write sentences, and got a spanking, and went to bed early...

I made sure his spanking was UNBEARABLE..hopefully when tempted to talk in class--he will remember his sore ##### He only accomplished 1 1/2 pages of sentences in a hour though--that added to his penalty..yes I KNOW that he is developing his independence and his friends are becoming increasingly more important to him..and what they think means a hell of a lot more to him at this point..then what I think...but i'm hoping that the harshness this early in the game will teach him...friends aren't everything...and it is more important to obey authority then it is to please your friends..he is the outgoing personality type..

I warned him this morning though--if you even get one strike for talking it will be ten spankings and grounding...i showed him what to do if another kid (2 in particular) tries to strike up a conversation..put his finger over his mouth like "shhhhh"...and at recess he can explain to the rugrats..he gets in SERIOUS trouble for disturbing the class with his talking..

he went to bed at 8:30 pm...I loved him and reassured him, then WARNED him..

I stayed up til 1 am..hanging out with my friends..yes I got friends.. (right outside our apartment) and drank a budlight..

suprisingly my ONLY weak spot--was when I took him to the dollar $ to get me some aloe vera..and I was still pretty miffed--but he was so helpful...amazing what a spanking looming over them does to them..

I grabbed chocolate, and licorice, but managed to not polish them all off...GOOD FOR ME..I still ate some..but not in my exaggerated EMOTIONAL eating way...I was actually hungry too..since I skipped lunch.

[jenmommy]

Tuesday, May 6th...

Well, I journaled my awful day yesterday...

it's 8 am right now..I know I need to eat something..but I'm so tired...me and SO dtd last night at 1 am...and my back and tummy are sore too... I did sleep, but I didn't take melatonin...and I got up at 4 am to pee in the middle of the night..I do this alot..when I don't take my melatonin..my temp has been a little off..as I chart to prevent conception..so I might have a slight infection going on...I noticed this the last couple of days, and I have been more tired than usual...

one good thing, even though I didn't get to do my Mystic Tan...I used some Gradual Tan, and it looks fairly nice this morning..maybe I'll save money doing it this way...my razor burn feels better too...

[jenmommy]

ok time for food...I finally did eat at 12pm..

lunch: 1 1/2 cups grapes=1.5 pts
1 small banana=2 pts

snack: low sodium v8=0 pts

something in between: 15 saltine crackers (5 are 60 cs and 1.5 g fat)=4 pts
, with 2 oz cheese, =6 pts (1 oz or 7pcs=110 cs and 9 g. fat)
and 8 slices turkey (shaved) (was hungry)=(4 slices were 50 cs and 2g fat) =2.4 pts

snack: 2 crows, =.5 pt
10 non pareils, =1 pt (mini)
and 1 box junior mints (craving chocolate)=1.5

17.9 pts total

1 low sodium v8=0 pts
1 glass 2% milk=2 pts

19.9

I lost my appetite--I'm facing eviction. please pray for me.

[Lulu-n-Peanut]

Good for you for doing WW! I am doing it too - also with information I found online.

[soImarriedAnerd]

man you keep getting hit with one thing after another. Good luck

[jenmommy]

yeah, Angela that is what it feels like...one right after another...good thing I'm strong enough..thanks to God ..to roll with the punches...

I really don't know if I get to stay or not..I talked to the landlord yesterday...

it was about James being rowdy with our neighbor's son...Tay staying too much for their liking with me...even though Housing said he could stay 4-5 days a week. The landlord is saying no more than 2 days! without being on the lease...

she was upset about our beautiful garden, only because it is in the back and it is so long..

so...she told our friend Frank he was definitely moving out yesterday, it is because he took in the strays around us and gave 3 of them a home...then he fixed them, and was supposed to put them out...but they love him and keep coming back...and he doesn't have the heart to get rid of them...she said he could keep one with the pet deposit...but multiple people that are our neighbors have multiple animals...so he feels it isn't fair..and it's not.

but when I talked to her she was having a change of heart about us both...

yeah, I'm friggin stressed out, If she does let us stay, Tay is upset about not getting to have the garden...and...about Frank having to leave...

she has left me hanging waiting on her to call me...and it's driving me mad...cause she told me not to call her but to let her call me!

Plus I'm stressed, cause if Tay doesn't get on the lease...he could work the 4-5 days with me...and his job...but not 2! He will have to stay with someone else..or commute all the way from Spartanburg to keep his job!

well, I'm supposed to get my CNA license around June...but i have some time if I do have to go through the pain of moving...

I wasn't even worried about points yesterday..cause I liquid fasted the whole day until 5 pm...

I drank like 2 v8s-0 pts
ate one chalupa-4 pts for bread, 2 pts for chicken, 3 pts for sour cream
2 bites of a hot dog=1 pt
some chocolate=1 pt
noodles, chicken and veggies=6 pts.

yeah, I'm still dieting while I'm stressed--I don't want to get stressed and fatter..

[soImarriedAnerd]

yeah, I'm still dieting while I'm stressed--I don't want to get stressed and fatter..[/b]

HAHAHA thats good. I do the opisite when i am stressed i forget to eat-sometimes for days....and lose weight...i could use a little stress right now.

[jenmommy]

I am so mad right now...mad at supposed friends that betrayed me and stabbed me in the back...and lied to my landlord...

then they caused my home of 4 years to be taken from me...probably because they have family they want to move in ....##### holes. And put my child through this too...I could beat someone.. severely.

I'm pretty pissed, and just know I could go off on the right person...so I'm just keeping to my self...

pray that I find a decent place, that is big enough with ability to garden, and afford.

Thanks.

[jenmommy]

woo-hoo! Go stress, yeah I am one of those who stops eating when stressed, mostly because I feel like I am going to puke when I eat and am stressed...

so let's see what did I eat today?

2 cups coffee=2 pts
1 banana=2 pts
1 soft taco
shell=2 pts
meat=2 pts
cheese=2 pts

non pareils=1 pt
junior mints=2.5 pts

3/4 hot dog=4.75 pts
bun=3 pts
chili sauce=1/4 cup =3 pts

1 v8=0 pts...

24 pts so far....

but the best thing..when I got on the scale...just about 15 min ago...after I ate, and am bloated

I was 188.8 lbs! yay...so excited to be back in the 180s.

[soImarriedAnerd]

I was 188.8 lbs! yay...so excited to be back in the 180s.[/b]

woot woot!!!!

[jenmommy]

well yesterday I had a glass of milk--2 pts
some more chocolate 3 pts

so that is 29 pts...

today i had coffee.=2 pts

.and I am not hungry...too much stress...I can't even look for a place yet...that makes me sad.

well, my friend fed me twice yesterday...

she gave me 2 eggs and 2 pcs bacon...6pts, 2pts

then I had these mini chicken quesadilla's=480 cs=12 pts

then I had a few pringles=2 pts

and a few homemade french fries=8 pts

1/2 beer=1 pt
1/2 cup sprite =1 pt

ice pop=2pts

36 pts total...

I ate very nutrient sparse things today...and that is why I didn't eat as much but still ate the same number of points

[jenmommy]

ok Today is May 10th...Saturday..

I am in the mentality there is nothing that I can do about anything right now today..so I am trying to enjoy the day...clean up a little and maybe go out and get some boxes...

I actually ate 1/2 hotdog...=2.5 pts
half bun= 1.5 pts
half chilli sauce=1.5 pts

some chocolate=2 pts

1/2 cup Vault=1 pt

I saw that the nursing home in Clinton is hiring.CNA POSITION...they are looking for 3rd shift...I think I want to work 3rd shift. I won't have the child care needs with 3rd shift I would have with the other shifts...

I could do my classes and work 3rd. I have a friend who is studying to be an RN and she is doing it.

Except Clinton is 45 min from here...and it's 9.05/hr.

I wonder what the job duties would entail on 3rd too?

ah well...I thought the weight of 188.8 was a fluke...but today when I weighed later in the day..I was still 189.2 which is below 190! yay...

um, my temp is really high...in the morning...If I didn't know better I would have thought I already ovulated..but I know I didn't...stress is doing that to me..I bet...but when I took my temp right before going to sleep..it was super low..it's wierd. I have no sign of ewcm..though..and it's the 10th..I just know I will ovulate late, I don't want it to catch me off guard..don't need a pregnancy on top of all this mess...but I had an odd cramp in my right side..early this morning...it was SORE too...I never o on the right side...so I don't think that was it...BUT..I'm not sure what that ache was...I never had it before..plus I have no ewcm...

although me and SO haven't had relations for a week now..

[jenmommy]

ok time to log the food some more...

previously=9.5 pts

12 crackers =2.5 pts
1 1/4 oz cheese=3.75 pts
4 slices turkey=1.4 pts

chocolate=2pts

18.2 pts total...

well my appetite is back..need to find not high pts foods...

well I was full blown ravenous yesterday...

I ate another serving of the crackers and cheese, and turkey for dinner, but added pepperoni =9 pts

a few bites of Ramen=1 pt

2 ice pops with 1/2 glass milk=5 pts

popcorn=1 pt

water to drink all day..

I need to go shopping for my low point foods...

so 34 pts...not too bad...considering how hungry I was...

[jenmommy]

Sun May 11th...

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms.

today I had a cup of coffee=1 pt

1 glass milk=2 pts
1 cup cereal=5 pts

1/8 cup fruit=.12 pts

let's see I had some beef and maccaroni like chef boyardee=5 pts

1 1/2 porkchops=6 pts

7 pcs fried okra=3 pts

snack: 1 cup coffee=1 pt
beer=2 pts

1 fruit snack=1 pt
20 bitesize chocolate morsels=2 pts

22 pts-that's all?

well, I'm craving chocolate probably for the emotional stuff...at least I ate the safe chocolate instead of going to the store and getting the real fattening gourmet chocolate I love--proud of myself for that.

[jenmommy]

Ok, journal entry...

I am terrified at what will happen tomorrow...my friend called me finally...and I actually believe that she didn't lie on me to my landlord...she acted like she might even call and vouch for me...

I don't know...

I have to call my case worker tomorrow..it's going to be really rough if I can't get housing still...I am doing my best to get prepared to enter the nursing program..I have my CNA done..that was rough..I did CNA clinicals while taking classes as well...kept my 4.0. I need to take the certification test though..

but, if I don't get housing...I am afraid I will have to work, and full time at that...in order to afford a place..cause Tay's job is only seasonal...I pay bills out of my loans from school. and then I will most likely have to work 3rd shift because of schedule conflicts...and I know I can't do that with clinicals...

I hope my landlord will back down..she already said she can't prove Tay was living with me...only that he stayed with me about 4-5 days week...and really he spent like 50 hours total a week with me...

I'm starting to stress bad again, but I'm glad that I will know what I can do tomorrow...I hate feeling clueless.

I wonder if having a temp of 100.1 during the day is ok...I get really hot..and when I take my temp that is what it is...but it's an outward hot...not like fever hot...is it stress related?