I'm with ya! My weight is a big reason that I don't want to ttc right now and would be upset with an oops pregnancy. I'm so unhappy with the way I look and I can't imagine what pregancy weight would do to my self esteem. I have about 50 lbs to lose to get to my ideal weight
My problem is that I love food. I eat way too much lol. Its not even so much that I eat a bad diet, its that my portion sizes are out of control. I was at a really good weight when I met my husband 6 years ago and when we moved in together the pounds just started piling on. I was doing really good with exercise a few months ago. I had a gym membership and had workout classes that I took a few times a week and enjoyed. I still wasn't losing because I didn't have my diet under control, but I wasn't gaining either. I had to move across the country in March for DH's job and have not gotten a gym membership here. I haven't found a job either so I feel like I'm just sitting around the house picking at food all day ugh. There are lots of walking trails around here so I've been trying to jog, but I just don't have the motivation to work out on my own, I need a structured environment like a gym. I feel bad too because DH is all buff and hot and I feel ugly. If he let himself go I would NOT like it (horrible double standard I know

) and even though he constantly assures me that he still thinks I look good I know he wishes I looked the way I did when we met.
My goals are:
1. Get off my butt and get a gym membership
2. Get on a good workout schedule and have a good cardio/strength training workout at leas 3x a week
3. watch what I eat and keep a food journal so I feel accountable for what I eat
4. stop picking at food. My goal is to eat everything off of a plate with measured portions so I know exactly how much I'm having. No more snacking while I'm fixing meals or picking at DH's food
5. Start weighing and measuring myself twice a month. I'm really bad about weighing in and check my weight maybe twice a year. Mainly because ignorance is bliss and I just really don't wanna know

Also, I'm very tall (6'0") and I can lose or gain 10 pounds or so and never really notice because my clothes still fit about the same.
I just turned 26 on Monday and I this is going to be THE YEAR that I do this! I've spent all of my 20's so far feeling bad about my body and I'm ready to make a change.