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So, if you don't remember me I lost my twins on 9/16/11. They were the result of IVF and over $50K in infertility treatments. I have NEVER gotten pregnant on my own and DH have been trying for over 8 years. We do have a son who just turned four from an IUI. Anyways... I got a BFP on my first cycle after losing my twins. We were "trying" and I was using my CBE fertility monitor and all it was giving me was highs for 11 days straight (that has never happened, it goes from low to high to peak when you are ready to ovulate). I really thought I must have not ovulated. I even had a follow up check up at my OB's on CD17 and I had her pull my progesterone and estrogen because I said my monitor was wacky. She said my levels were normal and that I had ovulated... I disagreed cause the numbers were low. I must have JUST ovulated. So I decided to test and left the stick in the bathroom, checked back a few minutes later and OMG there were two lines. I called DH right away and was like "there are two lines on this freaking pregnancy stick!" I took another test to see if two lines came up and they did. I called my dr and they had me come in for a blood test. Get this, my beta was only NINE. My internet cheapie test picked up a beta of NINE! They had me come in 24 hrs later and it was 54. I have tested everyday since (very dark lines) and I think I am about 5 1/2ish weeks right now. They are having me come in for another blood test next Monday and want to see my levels over 3000. I think they just don't want me to go for an u/s and not see a heartbeat... I am having a good feeling about this though. I will be seeing the high risk perintologist (sp) and having a cerclage put in at 12 weeks. Ironically depending upon when they put my due date, 12 weeks falls on the twins full term due date, Jan 19th, bitter sweet.
I am shocked that this has happened on our own and nervous at the road that lies ahead. I never thought this would happen for us again like this. I feel like I get my "do over". Not that I am replacing my babies I lost, but a chance to have closure and bring my baby home. I pray for a heart beat and a beautiful u/s very soon.
Praying that everything goes well and you have a healthy, screaming baby in your arms in 8 months or so. When is your due date? There is a board on JM called Pregnancy After Loss if you want to share your pregnancy with other women who have experienced loss (miscarriage, stillbirth, etc.). It's hard and stressful sometimes and it's nice to share it with other women who understand why you sometimes feel crazy. Of course, we'll be here for you to but that board will be more active.
My due date would be July 31st-Aug 3rd, not sure what they will put it at. It is hard to wait for an ultrasound to see if everything is alright. You worry about every little things that you feel. I have also been spotting some pinkish color and then turns to brown old blood, so I am not sure what is going on. Makes me worry, but it isn't enough to even call my dr for. They can't do anything for me so early. I had incompetent cervix and infection and they are not sure which came first with my twins... hoping and praying this is my rainbow baby.