[Brandiwine77]

Of course I couldn't resist the POAS urge! You know the outcome. Me + HPT = BFN!! I was really feeling differently this month. I was calm & felt peaceful about it. But that stark white test I took literally pissed me off. It's sad to see a grown woman sitting on the toliet holding a HPT & looking at the ceiling talking to God, saying "Ok God, You love me, You promised me, we are doing everything we are supposed to be doing, You have sent someone to tell us it is going to happen, we've had several blessings. Where is that 2nd line? Why isn't it here?" and actually expecting an answer. Right now I'm pissed & I really just want to cuss & throw things & cry at the same time.

Yeah, I know, I know, 11dpo w/o FMU. It's still early, don't give up yet. Sometimes you just want to flip the bird, say what the F ever & walk away. Sorry this is harsh venting.

[*babylove*]

good luck this month!

[.H.e.a.t.h.e.r.]

You dont need to apologize for venting...you can do it all you want. Be as angry as you want to be. I still hope that its just too early though.

[RainyDayGirl]

Girl, I hear that! I want to pile up all my ttc and pregnancy books in the yard and have a bonfire sometimes (like today, when not only did AF show but is giving me bad cramps).

Go ahead and let it out; I think it's important to vent sometimes so we don't drive ourselves nuts.

Big hugs to you

[txjovigal]

You have every right to get upset!! we all do! We are human and have feelings...

[Brandiwine77]

Thanks ladies. I can't believe I went off like I did. Normally I can somewhat control my temper, but I was absolutely raging then! And then 5 minutes later was crying. Talk about a mood swing! Well, my temp stayed pretty much the same this am, & I've had some light cramping, which I don't normally get until AF is here for a day or two, and then its horrible! I've also had a little bit of spotting, but it was dark brown (sorry, TMI) so I'm hoping that I still have a chance. With the exception of last month, my LP is 13 days, so AF should be here on Thanksgiving. Nice huh? I'm leaving to go to my Mom's tomorrow, so I'll be taking my BBT & $ Tree HPT just in case.

[k_bear]

Brandi!
Hopefully you'll get your bfp this month, but if not, wouldn't it be cool to find out right before Christmas?
Good luck...I so hope it works..I will be thinking about you!

[Brandiwine77]

Thanks Kaitlyn. Yeah, I kinda figure I'm probably out this month, so I'll just hope and pray for the perfect Christmas present