[Brandiwine77]

Here's the thing. At 10dpo I POAS, because I'm stupid, and I needed to get it out of my system. Well, I look at the test & 'think' I see something very faint. I really want to shout for joy, but knew not to get my hopes up, because I could be crazy & seeing things. So I finally bucked up the courage to show DH the test (taken out of stick of course) and ask him if he sees anything, & I make him swear on the Bible that he will be truthful. He say's "yeah I see something very light there, why?" "Because its a pregnancy test" I tell him. He questioned why wasn't it darker & I said well, it could be several reasons & I explained them all. I didn't have any tests, so I hadn't been POAS for 4 days & just kept staring at the other test. My temps have been AMAZING! FF even put on my preg. indicator thing "possibly triphasic" which I've never had & I loved it! So fast forward a couple of days to this morning, 14dpo. I wake up at 6am, take my temp. Uh oh, looks like this is going to be a s**tty day, because it dropped. But don't fear! It's still possible! You don't have to have a triphasic chart to be preggers! So, I POAS. Big F'ing Negative. Not a hint of anything. Plus, now I feel crampy and have been spotting. So I go from the elation of 2nd line (looks light pink, not gray) to absolutely nothing. My heart is breaking. I really thought this was it. I'm so upset & angry that I don't know which emotion to feel at the moment. Do I continue to cry, or do I start cussing & throwing things? I'm sorry to throw this all out there, bless you if you have read this much.

[~April04~]

o Brandi I am so sorry get out what your feeling anyway you can hun

[txjovigal]

BRANDI!!

I wish I could give some great words a wisdom but I can't instead I will tell you that right now as you are reading this, I AM GIVING YOU BIG HUG!!

[richmond_girl]

I'm so sorry Brandi. You do whatever you need to do! Cry, cuss, throw things, all of the above!!

We are here for you!!

[Hoosier Kitty]

with everyone! Spend all the time with your DH and your fave things to do to get the anger out!

[Brandiwine77]

Thanks ladies. Well, I'm no longer crampy, and AF hasn't shown up yet! I've been praying today for God to please bless us with a baby. I guess you can say I've been daring Him too. Because I've been saying things like "ok God, you are powerful & almighty & this is nothing to you, so make me pregnant!" and "I know you can create miracles, but everyone doesn't, so show them!" If the witch shows up on Christmas Day, I'm going to be pissed! She showed up on Thanksgiving Day, and by gosh, that's all the holidays she needs to ruin!