[Daisee37]

So if anyone has seen the movie Groundhog Day, then that pretty much sums up my life right now. I've been stimming with follistim for 15 days... yep, FIFTEEN days, and every day for the last 5 days, the RE has been saying "looks like you'll trigger tomorrow." And then I go in the next morning and nothing has grown, and they say again "looks like you'll trigger tomorrow." So the IUI I SHOULD have had 5 days ago is now scheduled for Friday.

The other thing bumming me out is that my follicles have starting shrinking, rather than growing. I feel like the whole cycle, after all this, has been a bust. 2 days ago I was expected to trigger with 3 mature follicles... they were 17.5mm, 15mm, and 14mm. Then yesterday I went in again, and they were 17.5mm (NO growth), 15.5mm (only half a mm growth), and 13mm (SHRANK 1 mm). Then this morning I went in and they're now 18mm (half a mm growth), 14mm (SHRANK 1 mm), and 13mm (NO growth). So the cycle they kept telling me I'd have 3 mature follicles at trigger is now the cycle where I have only 1 mature follicle, as long as that one doesn't start shrinking too. I'm getting so freaking frustrated with this whole thing. I don't know why I've been on all these meds if all we're going to get is 1 stupid follicle... I could have done that on my own, without the meds, and faster! Also, we only have 7 vials of donor sperm, so I'm starting to doubt whether I even want to waste one at all on this busted cycle. I mean, I know there's 1 good follicle there, but I'm not sure I'm comfortable triggering with only 1, especially since we have such a limited supply of sperm left.

Also, if this cycle doesn't work, I'll probably take next month off since I have finals and I won't be able to go to the RE's office every other day during finals week, so the timing is just all screwed up. If I triggered a week ago like I was supposed to, then I would've had time to fit in another cycle before finals, but now I won't have time. So that just bums me out more.

Anyway, that's why I haven't been updating here much. There's been nothing interesting to tell anyone, and I'm just depressed and feel like people don't need to be brought down with my pessimism.

[christylovesherbaby]

I'm sorry this cycle is so tough. Life in an RE's office is such an emotional rollercoaster. T&P with you for a good transfer on Friday (are you leaning towards going forward with the transfer?) Please KUP

[*Mommy2Remington*]

Whats up with those follies??? Man oh man....try sitting down, look at your pelvic and say "Look here Follies, we've got a job to do and your not making it easy. Shape up or else..."
Im sorry that your having such a bad time with this though. As far as triggering this month and using the sperm....I don't know what to tell you. Just go with your gut feeling.
Let us know what you decided and know that we're thinking of you and wishing you all the best.

[*babylove*]

well, I am so sorry to hear such a difficult time

[Daisee37]

Well... I did my trigger shot last night, and IUI is going to be tomorrow. I don't have very high hopes, since there's only 1 mature follie, but I just can't justify wasting $3,000 (between all the monitoring and meds), especially since I know I won't be able to try next month anyway. So we're going for it. I KNOW it only takes 1 egg, but that doesn't really help relieve my frustration at how screwed up this whole cycle has been. A huge part of me just wants to call up my RE and scream "I TOLD YOU THAT 75 IU WAS TOO LOW A DOSE, AND NOW LOOK AT HOW CRAPPY THIS CYCLE HAS BECOME!" Not that that would help anything, other than me venting.

I think one of the largest stressors right now is just the limited supply of donor sperm we have left, since we want all our kids to be related, and I want 3 kids total. With only 7 samples left, it doesn't seem likely that that's going to happen. BUT... an idea I have been toying around with is maybe when we're down to 2 samples, maybe I could do IVF, so that we have a greater chance of conceiving from each sample. But of course, that costs $$$, so who knows. I don't know which I would want to do more: choose a new donor and have kids unrelated to each other, or go through IVF and all the $$$ that costs. I guess we'll cross that bridge if and when we get to it. I wish I could just track down this donor and say "hey, I know you're done officially donating, but how about helping us out a bit!" Too bad it's anonymous!

[Hoosier Kitty]

I'm sorry you are going through that situation. I hope the IUI is a successful tomorrow!
I dont' blame you for wanting the same donor to have the same father for all of your kids. I'd be the same way.

I'm so sorry your follies didn't cooperate If it makes you feel any better I stimmed for 13 days in my IVF cycle and I was on like 425 IU gonal F! I would def talk to your RE about upping the dose if this happens again, but I am hoping that the PERFECT eggie will be waiting and you will get your BFP from this cycle!!