[Lisap2008]

Even though I dont think its going to stay put.
so its been a while sence I have been on here because after TTC for so long we just lost all hope of it ever happening for us. starting learning to enjoy life again without even thinking of TTC anymore, so we both lost weight, I had been giving my DH HCG shots for the HCG diet , knowing HCG also increases sperm production still did not expect it to help much, seeing as I am 41 years old I felt as if I am too old . I also struggled with pcos my whole life and the only time I have gotten pregnant is when I lost weight. still did not expect to get pregnant. but tuesday night I started feeling more tired then usual , I thought maybe this is our month, so the next morning I get the courage to test totally expecting to see a BFN the last minute of the test im about to throw it in the trash when I see a faint pink line starting to show up. I did not believe it so I took 2 more tests both positive!. we were so happy, DH of course holding back on the excitement a bit after out last loss in september of 08 , and I was scared to death because I went out drinking this month with my sister totally not expecting to be pregnant, because we stopped TTC a long time ago.
so anyway here are the tests.


im sure I am losing the baby because my tests from today are now negative. but it gave me hope that we can still conceive , and I wanted to share with you all to show you that anything is possible .
I gave up coffee cold turkey as soon as I saw the positive tests ,
hopefully we will get another blessing soon that will stick!.

[MiracleMuffin]

sticky bpf ! Congrats!

[Lisap2008]

Thank you I wish it were a sticky.

[Jessie0505]

Aww..hun..you just never know..maybe call the dr anyway and see if they can take your numbers! i sure hope its just early..maybe you were just more hydrated. im actually watching i didnt know i was pregnant..and ya..they just had a specialist say it can depend on what time you test too..i sure hope this is it for you! BIG HUGS!! Hang in there hun!

[Lisap2008]

I am only getting faint lines still on super concentrated urine. but I would think they would be darker not lighter, and with diluted urine its now a negative ,the tests above are from tuesday and they were not from concentrated urine ,I still feel pregnant though I dont think my progesterone level has dropped at all. no cramps and no spotting yet.but I am pretty sure I already lost the baby the day I had got my first BFP because from there they all got fainter. now im just waiting to M/C , my doctors office can do nothing at this point,I just feel so dumb for not taking better care of myself I had even stopped taking folic acid, and started drinking like 4 cups a day of coffee. I just had no idea this would be the month we got pregnant. all I can do now is take better care of myself and hope for a healthy pregnancy next time.

[Lisap2008]

On the positive side I know my DH's count must have improved and I can get pregnant !
maybe this was Gods way of giving me hope where I had lost all hope.

[wishfulgal]

I'm happy to hear that you got a BFP but sad to hear that you think you are losing the baby Hopefully your hubby's sperm count is better now and you can conceive again soon.

[Lisap2008]

that is what I am hoping as well. thank you.

[ThankingGOD4my2girls]

I am lurking and I hope you dont mind my commenting. I saw your post and just wanted to say you are in my Thoughts and prayers.