Hate to keep asking but...

Shades of Grey · #1 February 22nd, 2012, 08:15 AM

I am asking for light, positive energy, any thing... My marriage has ended. Some how Ive accepted and come to terms with some aspects of the situation but what Im struggling with is how it effects my son. My priority is keeping him in the house we have, keeping this stability, security. At least for a while. I just can not allow everything to change for him at once. I dont trust his father, i dont know what i can expect from him, what he will do to provide for Greyson. Im so worried about how this will work out for him, in the short run. I know I am strong, better than the situation Im exiting. I know I am a strong enough mother that my son will grow up happy. It just breaks my heart that his father is such a weak, cowardice, sad example for my son.

Lady Lotus · #2 February 22nd, 2012, 09:18 AM

Never fear asking...you need it...you got it!

Shades of Grey · #3 February 22nd, 2012, 10:02 AM

thank you so much

mrsdutch · #4 February 22nd, 2012, 10:21 AM

I am so sorry you are going through this. Sending lots of love and light to the situation.

Lady Valkyrie · #5 February 22nd, 2012, 12:48 PM

Of course sweetie, I'm thinking of you, and praying for you. I am also asking Archangel Chamuel (love), Archangel Raphael (healing), and Archangel Michael (protection) to be with you both right now surrounding you with light and showing you the way forward. I am sure you're moving on to something better and you deserve such wonderful things. Sending love and always here if you need me.

mindy scott · #6 February 22nd, 2012, 02:15 PM

HUGS . My marriage just ended to

Sending positive energy and light your way

HippieLove · #7 February 22nd, 2012, 03:43 PM

oh

my love and thoughts are with you

Shades of Grey · #8 February 22nd, 2012, 04:42 PM

Thank you all so much.

Ive had these amazing moments of clarity. I feel like its a bit fast to feel like this, but among the many emotions, I feel great relief. I have exhausted myself trying to make a happy family. I know I would continue to try, always. He is a coward, and has pushed me and our son away. I can see that it would take something as awful, betraying, violating... as this, to bring it to an absolute end. I can see now that I AM happy, HE was the unhappiness in our home. HE was the negativity. HE was the problem. In this way, I feel relief.

I know it will get better. I know Greyson and I will be okay, eventually. I wish I could believe that his father will care enough for Greysons security to help keep this house for him. I wish I could trust that he will step up and be a better father. I just dont know that I can. Right now I am feeling ferociously protective of this little boy and I refuse to let his father threaten any more of his happiness.

Thank you again for your support. It means a lot to me.

Mindy, Im sorry to hear about your marriage as well. I was wondering if there is a shift in energy that is forcing out the bad over the last month, maybe cleansing. Its been one of the most intense Ive ever had...