[Mountain~Mama]

I have been going through a really rough time lately in my marriage. I have faith that things will get better in the future but right now I am struggling with letting go of the (recent) past. I know holding onto it isn't helping anything, it's creating major anxiety for me and causing stress for my husband. I am also beyond exhausted with having a 4 week old baby and a 3 and 4 year old who haven't been sleeping well themselves.

Can anyone help with some meditation ideas, chants, words of wisdom for me to let go of the negativity and thoughts of the past and help me focus on a more positive future.

Also any tips for sending the pink light from my heart to my husbands heart? I find myself doing this but it feels kind of forced and not as "loving" as I think it should.

Thank you for any help you maybe able to give me. I'm really struggling right now and need all the help I can get to make it through this time in my life.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Positive affirmation for love:
I feel love. I live love. I AM love.

Positive affirmation for peace:
Let go. Let God.

Mantra for peace/calm/balance:
Om mani pad me hum
(Om alone is also a powerful mantra)

Fiats to the Archangel and Archaeia of love:
Chamuel and Charity, let Divine love take dominion now!
OR
In the name of God, I AM that I AM. In the name of Archangel Chamuel, be gone, forces of anti-love!

There are also a couple of prayers that really spring to mind for you. All prayers, fiats, affirmations and mantras work best when said in repetitions of three. I would pick out the ones that speak to you and do them daily as a devotion until things begin to look up, honey.

This is a very healing prayer that puts out a lot of force for good in the world.

THE BALM OF GILEAD

O Love of God, immortal Love,
Enfold all in thy ray;
Send compassion from above
To raise them all today!
In the fullness of thy power,
Shed thy glorious beams
Upon the earth and all thereon
Where life in shadow seems.
Let the Light of God blaze forth
To cut men free from pain;
Raise them up and clothe them, God,
With thy mighty I AM name!
(Amen / So mote it be / So be it / Namaste)

And this one is a prayer to St. Jude - the patron saint of lost causes.

Most holy Apostle, St. Jude, faithful servant and friend to God. You are known universally as the patron of difficult cases, of things nearly despaired of. Pray for me, I am so helpless and alone. Intercede with God for me that He bring visible and speedy help where help is almost despaired of. Come to my assistance in this great need that I may receive the consolation and help of Heaven in all my necessities, tribulations and sufferings, particularly: <NAME SITUATION> and that I may praise God with you and all the saints forever. I promise, O Blessed St. Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favor granted me by God and to always honor you as my special and powerful patron and to gratefully encourage devotion to you. Amen.

There are probably more out there, but these are ones I have used and can vouch for.

When things have gone into a negative spiral, it can indeed take a concerted effort to turn that energy around. It's absolutely fine for it to feel "forced" at first - to just say the words and not really feel the positivity, to just visualise the pink light and not really feel the love. Much like smiling, it comes in time. The more you do it, the more you will feel the positive effects of doing it. Effectively what you're doing is re-programming your mind and heart in order to see the positives rather than the negatives.

You may benefit from some crystals placed in your environment. Rose quartz, rainbow fluorite, green fluorite, watermelon tourmaline, and amethyst are great neutralisers of negative energy and promote harmony in your relationships and the flow of energy through your home. They are also heart healers and amethyst is a very protective stone. All of these stones are relatively cheap to buy and can be sourced from most online retailers (there are several crystal shops on Ebay). You can also call on Archangels Raphael, Raguel, Chamuel, and Michael to help with this situation - which can be as simple as asking them for help daily. You could also put pictures of them in your signature here, like I do.

Raphael


Raguel


Chamuel


Michael


Welcome to this board honey - nice to see you in my little corner of contemplation and calm here on JM.

You are welcome here to vent/rant/talk or ask for questions, help, prayers and support in your time of need, and of course you're welcome to stay if you find you like it here. The ladies here are lovely, but all seem to have their hands full at the moment, so it's slightly quieter than usual. Much love & light xxx

[crankyfidget]

Welcome to the board and yeah, it looks like Sharron has you well covered in positive affirmations and meditations!

[crankyfidget]

I might add a tool for you too... and it's a way to deal with the negative voice in your head that likes to bring up the past and tell you how unworthy you are to move forward in a positive way. Give that voice a name. And, when he or she begins to talk to you.. .notice what the voice sounds like and how it makes you feel, then say to your voice (my negative nelly is named Gladys), "Okay, Gladys, that's quite enough." And send the voice away. I know it sounds a little different. But, it does help separate the negative nelly from the real you who wants to move forward and heal.

[Mountain~Mama]

Thank you both so much. I love all the prayers Sharron and have been calling to the arch angels this morning for guidance.

I love the idea of naming the nasty voice in my head. I've been trying to tell it to go away and to just let it go but it's easier said than done. Every song on the radio seems to bring something up or make me think bad thoughts, but I am trying, as hard as it is.

Hopefully next week will bring some changes that will help me move on.

[crankyfidget]

Oh, that takes practice to get the negative nelly to pipe down. Just keep noticing her and working to put her back in her place!!! BTW, I'm learning the very same skill right now. HUGS.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

I love the negative nelly idea Terri!

[Mountain~Mama]

I'm having a really hard time today. I just am consumed by the hurt and the anger.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Can you possibly take some time out to do something just for you? A walk maybe, or coffee with a friend, or even just a relaxing bath? Is there anyone who could watch the kids for an hour or two for you?

[hearts.0nfire]

I think Sharron/Terri covered it but sending lots of good vibes your way. I hope things get better soon!

[Shades of Grey]

I just wanted to say that I too struggle with these feelings. Pregnancy hormones are NOT helpful! Its hard to just let go of what has hurt you. Its hard not to let those things creep back into your mind when you DO manage to let them go for a while. I break down probably once a week. I try to let myself feel it, cry, get it out-in the shower is best for me, it feels like Im washing it away. If I dont, it feels like it festers and grows and makes me sick. I second the suggestion of doing something just for you. Im going to get a massage and reiki in the next few days. Luckily, I live near a school and can get it done very cheap.