[plan4fate]

I need one, and I need to find it fast before my emotional system tips the balance and I go off the wall.

[Lady Lotus]

I love my ametrine for that kind of thing.

Tourmaline, moonstone, and amethyst are good as well.

[LDRW]

Rose Quartz

Leslie

[fromGirltoMommy]

I'm not the best to answer that question, but I wanted to leave some love.

Hope all is well sweetie.

[plan4fate]

Originally Posted by LDRW

Rose Quartz

Leslie

huge chunk of it not 10 feet away... piece on the desk... not working

or.. if it is working... God help me I might been a shrink...

[LDRW]

We have to remember that our intent and what we want, may not be what the powers that be want. I wish you lots of luck and (((HUGS))). You can PM me anytime you would like to talk.

Leslie

[plan4fate]

Thanks sweetie. I just found out my SIL is expecting.. and I'm not handing it well... with DH gone, the fact that I already hate the month of march.. and Hope's EDD coming up faster than I can handle... I'm just not holding up well....

This was my FB status tonight

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

You need a combination and to carry them with you in a pouch. I am thinking:
Rainbow or green fluorite - Balance and harmony (alternative: aventurine)
Citrine - Joy, energy, immunity boosting, centering (this should be easy to get)
Charoite - For the inner peace you seek (alternative in a pinch: amethyst but charoite would be better)
Turquoise - For expressing and communicating your own needs (alternative: howlite)
Morganite - To help you balance your emotions / unshed tears (if you can't get morganite, apache tear)

You may need to order them online because a couple of these aren't the most common.

Until you have them, call in Archangels Raphael, Haniel and Gabriel to help you at this time. Xxx.
Also, write about your feelings. Get them out! In the private area here, or to me or anyone you trust in a PM, or on a piece of paper and then burn or bury it to release the negativity!

[crankyfidget]

Ashley,
May I ask? Do you have a feeling around becoming a mother? The outcome of this whole, long journey, do you have a feeling about how it will be?

[stucklikeglue]

I wanted to offer and a bunch of LOVE and LIGHT!

[plan4fate]

Originally Posted by crankyfidget

Ashley,
May I ask? Do you have a feeling around becoming a mother? The outcome of this whole, long journey, do you have a feeling about how it will be?

I could write a million words on this subject. But I'll try and be as brief as possible.


I think I will feel as complete as a person who has lost 14 babies to miscarriage possibly can. It will be the final piece in the border that is the puzzle of my life. I can't say it's the final piece, because death is the final piece and I don't expect to die in childbirth.

I've never once thought about life with out a child. Not once. And while I love Reme... he just doesn't fill that void for me. He helps cushion it, but his desire to have a sibling doesn't help one little bit.

[crankyfidget]

Let me ask this a different way, do you feel, at the end of your quest to become a mother, that you will succeed? Deep in your gut? I promise there is a reason I'm asking and it's not to bust your chops.

Remind me, can they find a reason for the losses? And, have they tried something radical like steroids to help you carry?

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Ashley, I'm not sure where Terri is going with this, but you can trust her for sure. Xxx.

[plan4fate]

We've done no medical treatment. We don't have insurance, and to buy insurance will still leave us with thousands out of pocket because it won't cover any diagnostics. I knew before I came down here I was estrogen dominant, but it didn't look like it was posing an issue.... well it's gotten worse since moving down here (thank you GMO soy in EVERYTHING gah).

I have a major thyroid disorder. I need meds, and I'm not on them. I told DH I'm done playing nice wife, I'm getting it taken care of and I don't care if it eats up everything we have in the bank (it shouldn't, but I'd do it lol). It ups my miscarriage rate by 70%. Add to it the estrogen dominance (which is made worse by the thyroid disorder) and it ups the risk even more. I've tried everything to balance things myself, but I've admitted defeat.. I need thyroid meds. 3-6m on the meds should balance that out enough to find any true underlying issues. I'll need to lose 30+lbs in the mean time.. which should help reverse the estrogen issue... but I'll need to cut out as much soy from my died as possible, as well as specific chemicals that can make it worse.





Do I see myself successful in the end? Yes, I do. I just need to find the strength and patience to wait until it happens.

[kaydee78]

Sending much love and light your way.xxx

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Me too, Ashley. I pray for your miracle daily. Xxx.

[crankyfidget]

Okay! #1 good for you! Get the meds and take care of yourself!!! That is a huge first step and often drug companies offer assistance #2. I want to address the gut feeling... It is huge . However I need a little bit to gather my thoughts on how to help you use this to your advantage.

[crankyfidget]

Ashley, I have two messages coming through for you regarding your TTC journey, may I share them here?

[plan4fate]

course sweetie. share away.

[crankyfidget]

Okay.. aside from the messages, let me affirm for you that yes, your gut is absolutely on track about the outcome and the meds.. so please follow through on that.

Message #1. I feel that you hate your body quite often and curse it for not working properly. You must stop this, spirit says, you must love your body and especially your thyroid. By loving it and accepting it for what and where it is RIGHT NOW, you begin raising your vibration and putting love out into the universe so that the universe may reflect love back to you.

Message #2 Divine Timing is at play here. It's a life lesson for many of us and it feels like you are one of the lucky ones who gets to be in on learning it. Part of the lesson of Divine Timing is letting go of the illusion that YOU can control the HOW or the WHEN your miracle baby arrives. It feels to me that you must 1. take the meds, 2. love your body and 3. surrender to the lesson... and as SOON as you manage that, the universe can deliver your dream. It's feeling your struggle and is just waiting for a moment of internal peace so that it can help you. Now, as I'm typing this out, I can feel your reaction and what it will be. HUGS. It's a lot to take in and to absorb and a few years ago when Sharron was giving me a similar message, I had a similar reaction. So, whenever you need someone to listen and to lean on.. I'm here! LOVE AND HUGS TO YOU.