[Trying for Baby J]

Hi everyone - I've been lurking for a few months (thanks for the advice) - but now I am so confused! We have been TTC since late summer/early fall. I am very athletic (long distance runner and cyclist) and my docs said things were looking good as I got AF my first month after going off BC (34 days). There were concerns about my weight as I am right at acceptable weight for my height (willing to gain). After a few months, I noticed my cycles were getting consistently longer - 34, 37, then 40 - and my temps and OTC OPKs were suggesting I wasn't ovulating. Right at the end of my last period (the 40 day cycle) dr. said it was time to add 3 - 5 pounds. This was CD 7. Pizza, ice cream, guacamole galore. He also warned if I wasn't o'ing, it would probably take 2 or 3 mos. for my system to "boot up. Sooo ... DH was relieved to get a "break" though we were both sad and I decided not to temp for the first month because this past five months has been so draining. DUMB!!!

So I am sick with some kind of winter bug and in bed most of the day on CD 13 - exhausted and run down. (Now we begin all the TMI - sorry). Wake up CD 14 with suspicious wetness - do a quick check - and it's EWCM?!?! Watery but *ridiculously* stretchy. Thinking better safe than sorry, I jump DH twice that day even though sick. BUT - I was lying down most of the day

CD 15 at bedtime I note dull cramping in left side and lower back only and decide I am crazy and imagining things as I had only yet gained about a pound. CD 17 I am queasy most of the day but not full on nauseous. CD 19, I am SHOCKED that my boobs are sore on my run - on the SIDES only - then decide I'm crazy. CD 20, I am on my bike in the living room and suddenly overwhelmed by the smell of MEAT. Keep asking hubby what's up with the meat. He looks at me strangely and says the only meat is the leftover ropa vieja - which is in the fridge - in the KITCHEN - which he opened 5 minutes ago to get a drink.

Then comes CD 21 - unmistakable AF cramps all afternoon. LOW abdominal region, dull tugging/pulling pain. Again, tell self I am crazy. Try to concentrate on work. Cramps are definitely there. They go away when exercising later. But when I am cooking dinner, hubby looks at me strangely. Remarks that it looks like the weight gain is going to my boobs (not much there

I tell him to stop joking and simultaneously feel badly thhat my rabid symptom spotting seems to have rubbed off on him. Hmmm ... are they fuller?

Woke up yesterday (CD 23) and found the slightest - but clearly visible - PINK in CM with a few tiny pinpricks of blood. Literally pin pricks, the size of a safety pin tip. Got home from run (sorry/TMI) and had huge (kind of nasty)amount of very stringy milky white cm. Def. not EW. Went to bathroom second time - again, very FAINT, but visible pink in CM. Visible enough that hubby (when told what we were looking for on TP) agreed it was there. (Marriage on a whole new level.)

No more pink ... today left boob is sore but not right one - this is also what happens when AF is coming, weird but true. Hubby says "now they seem bigger again - but maybe I'm too hopeful." CP is def. higher than yesterday but I am not good at that at all. I'm generally guessing and haven't mastered open or closed. I've been to the loo three times this morning which is unusual, but no entirely telling.

So HELP!!!! It's all subtle - the smelling thing isn't constantly, the boob soreness is on/off, the pink was quite faint and just those two times. Am I totally grasping at straws? It's okay if I am. But if I'm NOT totally crazy - when would you test? I was expecting a 40 - 43 day cycle - all the way to mid-March. Oh, and I've been starving, but maybe that's my metabolism kicking back up.

Color me confused and probably too hopeful.

[IZC]

It sounds very promising if you can go ahead and test to see what comes up!!!!! its hard to tell if you have really long cycles but if a were you I would test just in case. sending baby dust your way!