[cocosmumNco]

sorry for being mia last few days i've had a few probs ds has been ill (still is but hes getting better) and me and dh had a fight i asked him to leave but we sorted it problem is what we was arguing about i don't think was the problem i think it was more to do with him saying no to ttc. in a mad spare of the moment thing i made a appointment to have my coil took out. i thought if i'm not gonna need it i might as well have it out. its still in there for the time being but i'm really fighting with myself to leave it there. i think if i don't aleast give myself chance to get pg i will never know if its meant to be and i may end up resenting my dh. i know he be over the moon if i got pg its just him doing the planning is a problem for him.
i'm still thinking on this one and haven't made my mind up yet but i'm thinking of getting my coil removed and just not thinking about it not being there.
i know some of you might think what i'm thinking about doing is wrong but i know my dh i know he can't plan he likes life to take him where it does and i don't want to get to 45 or whatever and regert not having another child.

sorry for going on about this again but i really do have no one else to talk to about this as you can imagine.