||February 4th, 2009 09:08 AM
Ashley's TTC journal
Okay, Im starting a little late in the game. We've already been ttc for the past 3 cycles. Heres is a little about us, and then a re-cap of the past few cycles!!
Jason and I met in high school his senior year, my junior year. I had a boyfriend at the time and he had a girlfriend, even so I always thought he was such a dork :P so its not like I was interested. LOL Fast forward to a year later, my boyfriend and I started hanging out with him and some of his friends pretty often. We were in the same group of friends who were together almost every weekend hanging out and any chance during the week too. One night we went over to Jason's to play poker with a bunch of friends, and I was sitting with my boyfriend on one side and Jason on the other, its soooo bad because I had a boyfriend but that night I felt something with him. He was so talkative with me, and so nice (he was being nicer to me than my boyfriend was!) I dont know I just felt like he was interested in me and I have to admit I was too. Anways, another year goes by and me and the "boyfriend" break up which left me completely heartbroken. Jason started calling me and making sure I was okay, and again we were still in the same group of friends so we were hanging out all the time. And about a month after the break up with the other guy....it just happened. And it was perfect, we were perfect for eachother and from that day on I wished I would have realized it sooner, oh well at least I have him now!!! Now we have been together 3 years (almost 3 and a 1/2) we built our own new home this year and moved in in May, and things are just perfect :cloud9:
TTC so far-
I had been wanting to have a baby for at least the past year or so. And when I told Jason, he gave me this list of things that needed to be done/bought before that happened. I was like GREAT!! It made me happy because the harder I worked at those things the faster it would come!! They were things like have X amount in savings, buy a "family" type car, Jason insisted he had to be making at least X of money also before we would try, he also wanted a new truck (one of those ones with the backseat and 4doors) and he had to get his DREAM car (a Corvette Z06, and just pretty much have an account towards "baby things" that would be needed. Well in October of 08 all of the things were completed!!!! Yay!! It was time to ttc! :) We had a planned trip to Cancun, Mexico November 16-21st and it was supposed to be around the time I o'd so we were going to start trying then!! Well I didnt o on vacation and actually not even until December 1st. I was starting to think I wasnt going to o that cycle AND i was sick so we really got no good bd'ing in. And BAM! I o on CD21 (december 1st) and I was soooo sad because our last bd was a FULL 3 days before o. DANGIT! Our first month trying we were already out. Fast forward to 11 days later (11DPO) my temp shot up and I tested.... I was PREGNANT!!! On our first month without even really trying!!! I was excited, scared, shocked, and anything else you can think of...Jason was ecstatic too! :) 4 days later I started bleeding and knew it wasnt okay. I went and got bloodwork and then went home to rest and cry... I knew a healthy pregnancy couldnt come out of this much bleeding. That night when we went to bed Jason put his hand on my belly and said "Stay with us baby, we already love you, please stay with us" He slept with his hand on my belly on night long. The next day I woke up and moped around until it was time to call the dr. I started bleeding alot more and I just wanted to know so I went to the emergency room and got bloodwork drawn... my HCG was only 14. I was miscarrying without a doubt. Needless to say I was depressed and would stay that way for awhile, but I knew the only way I would get better was to get pregnant again ASAP. I actually ovulated only 13days after the miscarriage and again didnt expect that so only got 1 bd in on the day of o...that cycle was a BFN.
Now today I am 8DPO on our 3rd cycle, and we bd'd pretty good this cycle and for some reason I just feel really really good about this cycle!! For the past few days I have had lots of creamy cm, and yesterday I had some pretty intense AF like cramps on and off all day! Temp is still up today, so now its just the typical waiting game!!! And I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will be testing this Saturday (Feb 7) and 11DPO :heart: Wish me luck! I will update everyday with my symptoms so far.
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