Posts By Brittanie

BrittanieBrittanie was married to Matt in June of 2005, and shortly thereafter became pregnant with their first child. Unfortunately Cora Rei was stillborn on May 2, 2006 (38w1d) due to a cord accident. Brittanie has since had two "rainbow babies" (so called because rainbows bring color back in to the world after a storm): Erin Rielle was born June 7, 2007 and Patrick Reese was born February 25, 2009. She is currently a stay-at-home mom, enjoying every moment she has, and trying to see every day as the miracle that it is.

Breaks my heart

I just made pumpkin chocolate chip cookies with Erin.  After everything was all mixed up, she got out a book and stuff and started to pretend to make her own cookies.  Gingerbread men. With her cousins…and Cora. I hate that to play with her sister she has to pretend.  I LOVE that she knows her…
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Holidays

I find holidays hard.  And I don’t think I’m ever going to get over it.  I became pregnant with Erin in October of 2006, about 5 months after Cora died, so I was pregnant through Cora’s would-be first holiday season.  But honestly, I found no comfort in it because I knew from experience that pregnancy…
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First birthdays

I don’t know why first birthdays are so hard.  This is the 4th time I’ve done a first birthday, the 3rd with a living child. We did cupcakes & presents with friends today for Allison.  Her birthday isn’t actually until Monday, but today worked best.  Anyway, I was totally in the moment while IN the…
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Cooking with Cora

Both Erin and Patrick love to cook with me, and I have often wondered if Cora would have too.  It’s made me sad, on occasions, that I spend so much time in the kitchen and there’s nothing in there of her.  Well, I found a way.  I decided a while back that since I have…
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The hole she left

I’ve been watching the show Doctor Who on Netflix.  A couple days ago, I was watching the episode, “The Doctor’s Daughter.”  The Doctor and company had ended up on a planet where they were immediately taken captive, and the Doctor’s hand was shoved into a machine where a tissue sample was taken, his DNA was…
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If Only I’d Known.

I have often regretted not going to the hospital Cora’s last night, when I was at work and a coworker offered to take my place so I could go in because I told her I felt “off” – especially after looking at the ultrasound from 23 weeks and it becoming painfully obvious that her cord…
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Columbine

This week was the 13th anniversary of the Columbine High School massacre.  I’ve reflected a lot on that day since moving to Littleton, and even more today, my first anniversary here. I was a sophomore in high school, and I was sick that day, so I stayed home.  I don’t quite remember how the news…
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The other Cora

There’s another angel Cora that is special to me. Her name is Cora McCormick. Cora died at 5 days old due to an undetected congenital heart defect.  Sadly, a very simple test could have detected it and saved Cora’s life.  It’s called a pulse oximetry test (the little white plastic thing put on the tip…
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Remember

‎”If you know someone who has lost a child, and you’re afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died — you’re not reminding them. They didn’t forget they died. What you’re reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a…
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If Heaven Wasn’t So Far Away…

We were out eating lunch today, and Erin started talking about sisters.  She told me she had one sister, and I explained to her that she actually had two, because Cora was her sister as well as Allison.  She knows about Cora, but I guess it just hasn’t registered that she’s her sister too.  Anyway,…
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