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May 6th, 2009, 12:14 PM
LaLaLa1 LaLaLa1 is offline
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I don't really think or dream about the future anymore. Instead, I worry about the future. Since I lost Katrina, it opened my eyes and made me realize that bad things do happen to good people. Sometimes I think about how last year at this time I was so happily pregnant and had absolutely no idea that such a horrible outcome was going to happen.

I used to be the type where I would plan my life. I was supposed to have my first baby by the age of 26. Well I guess I was only a year late, but the unimaginable happened and forever threw off my life. Now all I do is worry for the future - what if I'm not meant to have more children, what if something bad happens again. argh it's so annoying. So I'm trying to just take it day by day, but that's very difficult when all I can think about is having healthy, surviving children in the future.

And not having Katrina in my future just tears me up inside.
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