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January 5th, 2010, 10:57 PM
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Yep...looked at my ticker today and realized I've crossed the timeline of 6 months of TTC with no luck. To make matters worse my cycle has gone wonky and I am spotting throughout the entire month so far. I am trying to maintain that stiff upper lip and keep my thoughts positive but it's getting harder and harder.....especially with my EDD rearing it'e head. I was due on Jan I should be big and miserable right now. Instead...I am heartbroken and somewhat soul sick.

I don't talk to my RL friends w\about my fears and sadness (anymore) because they always say "As soon as you stop thinking about it, you'll get pregnant." Ugh. Why do they try to make this the fault of the person who is in so much pain? I think it just makes them feel better because they have no idea what to do or say. I wish they would just say, "I'm sorry" Or "I know this is hard, I am hear to listen."? But no, they expound on all their wisdom though most of them are not TTC or fertile as the **** navajo valley.

And now to add to my lovely mood I am dealing with some helacious insomnia. I am always exhuasted but as soon as I turn the light out I am wide awake and my mind runs in circles. I guess I am just whining and complaining but I am feeling pretty down and out right now.

I dropped a tear in the ocean, and whenever they find it Iíll stop loving you, only then. ~Unknown
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