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July 20th, 2011, 07:23 PM
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Originally Posted by IsisMoon89 View Post
My period is 2 days late and I have already had 4 positive pregnancy tests. I will be going to the doctors tomorrow to hopefully confirm with a blood test. I'm so scared. I am 21 and my boyfriend is in the Marines. Money and housing isn't a concern but i'm just so terrified. All my life I have had a horrible fear of pregnancy and i'm so scared of how my body is goung to change. Do you still feel like you? Are you able to breathe? Just...pregnancy has always looked very painful to me. I don't understand how you can still breathe and move and walk. I have this extreme fear of not being in control of things and an extreme fear of pain and unknown. I should be happy or at the very least not filled with terror. I have had tokophobia for as long as I can remember. I want to keep this pregnancy but i'm just so terrified and have no one to go to for advice. I live on my own and have no female friends or relatives with children that can ease my fears. I just feel so lost and scared.
Don't take this the wrong way but maybe you should talk to someone? like a therapist? someone who can help you with your fear. I only say this because it isn't something you can just brush off your shoulders. Like when someone else may have a concern and a fear they will talk it out and brush it off knowing things will be ok in the end anyway. But for you, you're really afraid and that may need attention. At least that way you can express all your fears when it comes to pregnancy and work through them. It'll be great therapy for you at this time. Pregnancy isn't debilitating. I'll be honest with you, I got pregnant at 19 and I was scared but I was also excited. Then the morning sickness kicked in and it was ongoing. I was hospitalized I don't know HOW many times. I needed medication. I never thought I'd get out of it but I did. At 4 months. I swore up and down I'd never get pregnant again. Only a few days after I had my first daughter I told everyone I'll be having another, and I did. When my first turned a year old I got pregnant with my second daughter. Again, I was sick. I said "never again. I'm getting my tubes tied!" -- Well, I got pregnant again in 2009 with my son. I was VERY, VERY sick. I thought it would never end. It was so bad psychologically I believed even after I had him I'd still be sick!! Well, guess what? I'm pregnant again!! lol. Believe me, you get over the pain of labor. God makes us forget. God makes us forget the morning sickness, the aches, the pains. Because the truth of the matter is, if every women remembered how pregnancy was really like, no one would pro-create!! You can walk, move, breathe. You can function, believe me!! You're going to be fine but I do think talking to someone may help you! Congrats!
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