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August 31st, 2011, 10:19 AM
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I'm supposed to start my progesterone tomorrow. Start this incredible journey again. and I'm getting cold feet. i'm getting really scared. It's easy to hone in on the tunnel vision and strive for that beautiful baby, but what if my road forks? Am I strong enough to accept if life leads down a different (and heartwrenchingly familiar) path?! I mean my track record isn't exactly stellar... Could my loss of the twins be God's way of saying "hey woman you're baby reserve is tapped, give it up!" .. Part of me wants to move forward, "eyes on the prize" deal and the other part of me has bile in her throat at the thought of another goodbye. Why is it when I have all the support in the world and MEDICAL go-ahead and I am starting to crumble? I need a magical decision making button stat.

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