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November 25th, 2012, 08:22 AM
MommyBeth MommyBeth is offline
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Has anyone ever wanted to be pregnant, but afraid of what could happen to yourself at delivery or after?

Given that I went into congestive heart failure when MaryBeth was born and what recently happened with my SIL, I am terrified of having to have another csection. I am almost completely terrified to even think about having another baby. But at the same time I want to at least start thinking about setting a date to TTC or even one to NTNP.

How does a 26 year old, go into hospital for something as joyous as birth, leave the hospital 16 hrs after delivery dead?

This is not a question of faith, but more a question of what went wrong. Did someone mess up, was there an underlying condition we weren't aware of? This is also something I will probably never understand even once we have "answers".(There was an autopsy performed. We are still waiting on results.) She was fine after csection, lost some blood and was anemic so they were giving her a blood transfusion. She never got to see her baby girls. Twin B was born not breathing and both girls were rushed off to NICU to be checked out.

There had not been an ultrasound until she got to hospital to see if baby was head down. This was when they found out they were having twins. One twin was head down the other breach. She had gotten major run around from one clinic and had just transferred to another about a month before birth. Her due date was changed from Nov. 7 to 3 weeks later. Also she had 1 boy 6 years ago and the only complication was she got an infection after he was born. He was born "naturally".

How do you put aside your fears to think about having another baby? How can you not be fearful every minute of another pregnancy?

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