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February 10th, 2013, 09:55 AM
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I haven't started a journal in the DDC yet. With all these miscarriages under my belt I feel more comfortable here. NTNP still just in case.

I'm feeling acid reflux for sure now. I wake up feeling pretty good. Take a Pepsid, drink some juice, take my prenatals. Feel GREAT. Then I eat, and I have a burp fest for the rest of the day. lol Feels so queasy then I burp. But if this is what I deal with instead of nausea, I will take it!

This pregnancy just feels so different. My blighted ovums didn't give me much of anything. At 10 days late, I felt better than regular not pregnant. With my girls I felt like I had several rounds of chemo a day. This one is just reflux. I really don't mind, and I rejoice that this is all I'm dealing with at the moment. I'm even able to do chores, crafts, and go out to eat. It's amazing!

I wonder if I have it this good because I prayed for God's Will. With my first child I was SPECIFIC. A mother of an autistic child told me she prayed for "healthy," and her son is as healthy as a horse. So I made a list:

his black hair
my green eyes
his height
not his swayback
a penis
mostly B's with the occasional A or C
a musician
good at a sport
follows God

What I got:

my hair
his eyes
a hoohoo
loves music
horrible at sports
talks to angels
has Autism

So with my second and some humility I asked for:

Healthy body, healthy brain! Valentine's Day is a plus.

I got a girl with

his hair
my eyes
his height
no swayback
loves music
is well coordinated
no Autism
born February 14, 2012!

This time I wasn't trying for a baby. I did pray during the TWW that if God wanted me to be pregnant, that would be awesome, and I still love You, God, even if I'm not.

I'm curious how this child will turn out. Halfway curious if there is a child in there. lol I hope to hear the heartbeat soon. I have my first appointment and fingering session on February 20th. I'm going to ask for the doppler first.
James Arwen est. April 2, 2005
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Winter Rose - February 14, 2012
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