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April 9th, 2013, 01:47 PM
jacqui_ jacqui_ is offline
Join Date: Feb 2013
Posts: 25

I was brought up a member of the church and stopped going when I was 17. The main reason for me stopping going was because I didn't want to live by the gospel and wanted to be a "normal" teenager and do all the things my friends did. The church has always been in my mind and has had a strong place in my heart, but I have never found the strength to go back.
I am now 25 and have one son who is 2 years old. My partner is a lovely guy and a brilliant father to our son. I haven't spoken to him much about the church. He knows that I was baptised and that I stopped going as a teenager but he doesn't know how I feel about the church now. He isn't at all religious and has expressed the opinion that he doesn't want our son to be religious in any way.

I really would love to go back to church but I have several fears about doing so. The first would be that it would drive a wedge between me and my partner, as I would want my son to come to church.
Secondly I worry that the members of my old ward will be judgemental about my past. (They are a very judgemental group of people, they always have been).
I also worry about what stance the church would take about me and my partner. We are not currently married and to be honest I don't want to marry him right away. We do, however, live together and I know this is something that is frowned upon.
Lastly I know that my partner would never come to church. So when we did marry we wouldn't be able to be sealed etc. This makes me sad, not just for me but my son as he will never be able to experience that with us.

I know it's a long post, sorry! This has been bottling up inside me now for about a year. Thanks to anyone who replies
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