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May 8th, 2014, 01:41 AM
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Oh hun, I know what you mean. While mine was a fairly short stint, I also had a bout of anorexia in high school after a boy made a comment about my weight (not even someone I liked, just an acquaintance!). I lost 35 pounds and have pretty much kept it off since then. I haven't gone over 110 or so since halfway through high school (though I believe that is partly due to lingering health problems from even that short time starving myself). Like you, I've kind of built my mind frame around being that weight.

Putting on weight now, even knowing that it is the healthy thing to do, is MUCH harder than I thought it would be. I thought my body image was healed, and that I was okay with myself. Guess I wasn't as healed I thought I was! You just get stuck on wondering if the weight will "really" come off, and feeling really, well, big. Personally, talking with my husband has been an enormous help.

I get it. Big hugs and prayers for your mental health.

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