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October 16th, 2006, 11:06 AM
JustBeginning JustBeginning is offline
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Hey all, I don't post much, but I'm dealing with what I guess is Post Partum Depression, ... I've dealt with depression all of my life and then after my son was born it just started getting worse. I often cry, feel tired a lot, and get sooo frustrated and angry to the point it'll scare me and I just say screw it and decide to get a babysitter. Dh did NOT help me, I'm at my mom's now, since the last big fight we had was really bad.. which, I don't want to go into right now. Dh only helped me about the first week that I had Tyler and that was it... even when I'm to the point I just get frustrated and feel bad about THAT and about the fact that dh doesn't help me and want to leave the baby laying there crying in the middle of the night and throw something through the window .... he just says that it's my "job" and he "works" therefore he's tired and doesn't want to help.

Anywho.. I'm hoping I'll get over it even though it seems to me it's getting worse. I can't afford to go to the doctor and Dh would rather spend $150 on a gun for hunting than take me to the doctor before I end up hurting someone. Absolutely NOBODY will or CAN see me with no insurance and/or no money. This is what I'm upset about and why I wish I would've moved back to Texas the second I turned 18.

And on top of it, I'm stressing because our electric is supposed to be shut off this week, our house payment is due in less than 3 weeks and what? DH would rather blow his money on stupid crap.

Yeah, sorry for the vent but I just needed to let out something in hopes it would help.
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