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August 26th, 2009, 02:17 PM
Super Mommy
Join Date: May 2009
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A piece I wrote last week and put into a folder in Keegan's box.


I know in my heart things are going to get better.

I mask my feelings and feel obligated not to cry.
When I'm alone I feel only sorrow and sadness and let the tears fall.
As happy as I should be now, you and I can never be.
What seems like and eternity some days, feels like only seconds when I close my eyes.

I feel like I'm betraying you, hanging little blue outfits, folding little blue socks.
You were here first and the bitter sting I feel in my heart, will never go away.
I know soon, I will be looking at another angel's face, and dying because it's the chance you never had.

It all feels so surreal. I have 2 babies, and only one can I see.
I know one day, there time will come when I close my eyes for the last time.
I know my angel will lead me to heaven.
Until then, you have sent me someone to hold and love in your place.
No matter how many you send, when I look at them, I will always see your face.

To my Keegan.
Forever my baby.

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August 26th, 2009, 03:36 PM
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oh that's so beautiful.

thank you for sharing.

I actually needed to read this myself today (even though I realize it's about YOU). Just that I am missing Logan so much right now and it describes how I feel sometimes with Ella. I need to be reminded that Logan is okay with me having some joy in her. And that it's okay to think of him when I look at her/hold her sometimes. His face in hers, it's okay.

I really love what you wrote, it's so incredibly special.
b/g twins Logan and Ella
Logan stillborn, loved beyond measure

Journey to Logan video http://smilebox.com/playBlog/4e54597...314d673d3d0d0a
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August 26th, 2009, 04:29 PM
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This is really good. Got me teary-eyed. I have been inspired lately and have been writing poems about Roald. I think it's so sweet you wrote something for him and his memory box.
Visit Terry & Roald's Memorial Site!

Thanks to Mommy2Belle for my Roald blinkie!
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August 26th, 2009, 05:51 PM
Brittanie's Avatar just me
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That was beautiful. That's exactly how I feel about my babies that I hold. Even Patrick, though he's a boy.

Thanks to babydoll213 for the siggy! My kids' blog Cora's blog

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August 26th, 2009, 07:25 PM
liz bevan's Avatar Super Mommy
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that is very nice.
thanks for sharing

Thank you so much for the awesome siggie Claire
Our joys will be greater
Our love will be deeper
Our lives will be fuller
Because we shared your moment
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August 27th, 2009, 01:27 AM
claire1979's Avatar mummy to a special angel
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beautiful hun

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