AAHHHHHHHH!

I was trying not to get my hopes up but I did ff had me at 17 dpo and I couldn't take it so I tested I got a bfn I was sad. I put in temp for today my temp is still rising and ff says i didn't ovulate after i put in todays temp. I don't understand this charting sometimes. I started to cry told dh and he got mad at me told he why did I test without telling him. aahhhhh I just thought maybe I could suprise him so much for that. It's hard for both of us but does he have to be such a butt. I think i'm gonna stop trying it hurts so bad at least if on birth control I won't be heart broken. Sorry just had to get it off my chest.