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..Michelle.. August 18th, 2013 02:39 PM

Hi, see it's kind of quiet in here. Just wanted to share a little about me. I was diagnosed with BiPolar 1, depersonalization disorder, slight agoraphobia, social anxiety and panic disorder in 2001. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks to get my meds under control when I told my doctor I was afraid I could hurt others.
I had a great psych but when it came to my pregnancy in 2008 he totally dropped the ball. Roman was born at 30 weeks gestation with severe hydrocephaly (Water on the brain), he was blind, had cerebral palsy and seizures. After 5 days and 14 hours on respirators and other machines, Roman passed away on July 6, 2008.
I was taking Depakote and Paxil my whole pregnancy. They are both drugs that are class C and I should have been taken off them.
No, I did not file any law suits although I surely could have. I lost my son, I lost my sanity, I lost my job and I didn't want to go thru it all.
I've since gotten a new psychiatrist and a new general doc. I'm taking 10mg of Citalopram (Celexa) now and 0.5mg of Lorazepam (Ativan) and weaning off the Lorazepam completely before TTC again. I used to be on 40mg of Citalopram and 6mg of Lorazepam before we started TTC again about a year ago. No, it hasn't taken me this long to wean down medically...I'm just taking it slow for emotional reasons.
So....that's me. Just stopping in to say hello since I just found this board. :waves:

MommytoZoeAlyssa August 19th, 2013 01:42 PM

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Welcome to the board! It is a little quiet I think most people are just nervous to post but once you take the big step of introducing yourself the hard part is over! We have an awesome Host who post a lot of good topics which helps get things moving on here. Sorry for your loss. I think you are doing the right thing with your meds and weaning as you need to. Look forward to getting to know you more :)

amandabanana August 19th, 2013 04:10 PM

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I'm very sorry for your loss and I can't imagine what that must have been like for you. I'm glad you have a new doctor and hope things go well for you.

pattyandthemoos August 20th, 2013 12:42 PM

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Welcome to the board. I also have bipolar 1 so it's nice to see someone else over here dealing with it. It's a hard disorder to deal with.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I took medication with one of my kids and would never do it again. He was 7 weeks early, had serious developmental delays, and now has autism. I definitely think the meds contributed to his problems.

(((HUGS))) to you. It is a rather slow board but I hope you will stick aroud.

ZaydensMomma August 23rd, 2013 11:41 AM

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:waves: I'm new to this board too! And HOpe to see some of us stay active in this board just to support each other!!! :D

First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. That must have been EXTREMELY hard. I have a brother who was born with hydrocephaly and has CP.

I want to PM you with some questions cuz I could relate to some of your issues. :)

..Michelle.. August 23rd, 2013 09:50 PM

Re: Hello

Originally Posted by ZaydensMomma (Post 27607998)

I want to PM you with some questions cuz I could relate to some of your issues. :)

Sure you can message me! My laptop broke so I may not respond quickly but I'll do my best :)

It's been almost 2 weeks on the step down. Doing alright. The biggest problems I'm having now are muscle aches. Constantly feel like they're tight and they HURT badly...all in my arms, legs and back. I've also lost 10 pounds b/c I've had nothing but diarrhea and have been barfing (sorry, TMI) for over a week. Doc said it might be from the step down but more likely something viral so now I have to see her for that.
Mentally I'm doing alright. Hubby knows I need to stay calm and he's doing a good job of pissing me off only when he wants a punch (just kidding....humor is kinda my thing :) )
I haven't really left the house though. But we're very rural and only go shopping once a month anyways. We have a wedding reception to go to tomorrow and I'm hoping I can go.... Just hope I don't need the bathroom every 45 mins like at home :/
I'll try to check in at least once a week. Like I said, laptop over heated and is in for service. Best buy said it could be 2-6 weeks until I get it back :(:( Miss Candy Crush Saga already!! LOL!!

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