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alethia January 19th, 2012 07:06 AM

Thursday Thought: life-time
Do you feel like your ED will be a life-long thing? (Even if you're in recovery, do you feel like you'll have still times that you've had to fight or will have to to stay in recovery)

Irish_Wristwatch January 19th, 2012 05:08 PM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
I think it will be life long, I hope that it gets easier with time but I suspect that im going to have to make the choice to be healthy everyday

ashj_1218 February 13th, 2012 11:20 AM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
Um, yes and no.

I believe the thoughts will be around, more or less, for the rest of my life. I probably will have an altered body image (I still don't have an accurate one), slightly unhealthy notions around food (I still have a couple quirks with certain things), and will have to actively change my OCD thoughts away from food (at times) for the rest of my life.

BUT, I don't see myself as returning to the eating disorder lifestyle, physically or in action ever again. Even with the occasional thought, I can't see it affecting my behavior or causing a downward slide toward the eating disorder.

So yeah, I get why they call it lifelong. But I don't think I will have to fight it like I did ever again.

Miguels mommy March 23rd, 2012 07:55 PM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
For me it'll be a life time battle though it's still hard for me to seperate myself from my ed. I really don't expect anything different because I was so young developing my ed.

cln1812 June 13th, 2012 08:10 AM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
Yeah, I think I'll always struggle with it. I've been in recovery since 2001, but I still have difficulty with thoughts and rough patches.

The thoughts have never 100% disappeared (sigh).

amandaleigh June 16th, 2012 11:37 AM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
I also think that it will be an ongoing struggle. I have been doing well for years, but every time a stress filled situation pops up, I really have to focus on not falling back into my old patterns of behavior.

Stephanie_M June 19th, 2012 04:54 PM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
To me this will always be a lifelong struggle. I do well for a week and then relapse. I think my big problem is is that part of me isn't ready to let go. For so long its been part of who I am in a sense.

Run_Kat_Run July 15th, 2012 03:57 PM

Re: Thursday Thought: life-time
I feel like it will always be with me, but the more time passes where I'm actually, truly, happy, the less need I feel to exercise my butt off or to go a month on a week's worth of food. I mean, it made me miserable and sick.

I first went into a recovery program when I was sixteen, and I've relapsed at least once a year ever since, usually when I was losing control of a housing situation or job. What I've noticed is that, as I've gotten older and my friends have grown closer to me, the longer I go between those times that I feel the need to get that control back. I'm lucky enough to have two best friends with histories in anorexia and are mothers now, who are there to help me when I need them, and I think that that helps a great deal.

Stephanie has something, though. It's really hard to let go of something you've had for so long. I went through puberty with an eating disorder, and I'm just now learning how to live without one.

What's pushed me for a long time is knowing that I really wanted to be a mother, and now that I'm going to be one I feel like I've gotten a good kick in the right direction.

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